HER

She intrigues me. Stylish. Quaffed hair. Vogue. Cool. Polished. A teacher, I think. Perhaps a lawyer. No. A teacher. She's too cool looking to be a lawyer.

I see her around few times a week. She asked my name once. I told her. We make small talk. Nothing special. She's classy and beautiful but that's not what intrigues me. What intrigues me, she is no doubt the strong silent type. Independent. Sophisticated. Worldly. Qualities rare in women. Instead of the usual petty jealousy. Emotional instability. Nagging. Boring. If I was your husband I'd rather drink beer and masturbate too. But not her. She's seen places. Been things. She doesn't say much. Grins a lot. I like that. Like she knows all your secrets. So hot. I want to get to know her better. I want to know her secrets. Just one or two. I'd like to hang out with her some day. Have a drink of wine.

I saw her last week. Sitting at a table directly behind her was a couple. A little older. Sexy. The wife of that couple kept hitting on me. Got me going.

Sexual struggle.

Conundrum.

I would have given that couple my number but, I didn't want to do it in front of her. Anyone else but her. She probably wouldn't have cared. She seems too cool to care. I let that couple go anyway.

Worked out for the best.

I saw her again tonight. I really want to ask her out for a drink. Just can't bring myself to do it.

Respect.

She intrigues me.

Regardless;

I rented the movie HER from redbox. Loved this movie so much. Huge fan of Joaquin Phoenix.

Awesome scene: Phone sex with the girl who has a dead cat fetish...

"It's a dead cat and I'm... I'm choking you with its... with it's tail... It's a dead cat..."

After seeing that scene, I suddenly stopped feeling bad I watched (that one) clip of the guy having sex with a blowup doll. He didn't cum. Kind of disappointing. (The guy with the blowup doll, not Joaquin Phoenix.) Joaquin Phoenix, comes later in the movie.

"Sometimes I feel like I've felt everything I'm going to feel. And I worry I'm only going to feel lesser versions of what I've already felt."
-- Theodore