come play

You can't go back. Once you've tasted, taken a bite out of, had it in your mouth, savored it, shared it, once you experience the things that get you off like nothing before or after, there is no going back.

I want what I want, or nothing.

It makes me very aggressive like a boxer denying himself sex to stay hard.

Thinking about it intoxicates me like wine. I want more.

I love being watched by men playing with themselves, jerking off on me while I'm having sex. I'm a big cum freak. Snowballing. Bukkake. Creampie. But I'm also horribly afraid of sexual disease, the leash that strangleholds all my social activity.

"Daniel" was the first person to sell me on the idea that if I got in front of his webcam, on his website, it would be fun. And it was. We did all the things I love. Until it became work (performance) and then it wasn't fun anymore, plus he no longer wanted to have sex, doing all the things we/I loved doing, off camera.

And if you've never performed for a bi/gay online audience before, your "extremely gainful" performances last minimum six hours a night.

"Gotta save it for the camera," they say. And they do. Gay/bi men love watching three things - big dick, big cum loads, and S&M.

"Gotta save it for the camera."

I'm not into S&M, but the other two things I love, but the second these guys, straight guys, are told they can make money jerking off on cam, they always go and they never come back.

It's frustrating.

I have no patience.

I want what I want.

Where do girls like me go? It's not like I can just tap a guy on the shoulder of my choice and say, "Excuse me, but can you not come for three days, and in that time eat a lot of celery, and then call me after three days when you really need sex and to cum. Thanks much appreciated. Cheers."

Which is why, in part I have ZERO patience for women who pretend to know what cum play is.

It's been two years since I last had fun. Work, yes. Fun, no.

The closest I get, is European porn.

That's my sex life now. Porn.

I once knew this couple in North Hollywood...