Sunday, April 24, 2016

The 11th hour

Day 4. Still among the living. It's strange to me that people can be reported dead "for days" before anyone knows they're dead. I'm single. I (happily) live alone. No kids. No pets. Nothing to make a sound when I die.

Maybe I should get one of those life-alerts? 

(I made myself laugh just now) 

Shaking my shoes for spiders before putting them on. Shaking all my clothes too.

These spider debates I've been having with people past two days, look, the only person who's opinion truly matters is my dad's widow. She was really upset when I showed her the first picture of the spider bite. It was pretty nasty. Not as nasty of a wound as when she (literally) cracked the back of her head in half requiring 14 giant metal staples to hold her skull together, but still pretty gross. I shouldn't worry her. I didn't think a bug bite would worry her. She was born and bred in Wisconsin, lived in Minnesota over 20 years now, she knows what bug bites look like, but then I considered the fact my dad has been dead for only a year, and if something fatal should happen to me it would (emotionally) make her a widow all over again. 

Day 4. The spider bite is barely there. I can still see two little puncture holes where the spider bit me, and it's still a little red around the bite mark, but other than that it's almost healed. 

That said...

If YOU get bit by a spider and don't know what to do, keep the bitten area elevated, put ice on it, and seek medical attention immediately. Better safe than sorry! 

In keeping up with the news, I'm feeling my mortality. Regardless if people are dying from drugs, suicide, illness of one kind or another, people seem to be dying before the age of 60. 

When I was younger, there was a man I knew pretty well. I was 16 years old, he was (older.) Had he given in to my clear and obvious infatuation with him there could have been legal troubles for him on many fronts. There was nothing more than heavy handed flirtation until we went separate ways. Over this past weekend I was sent a photo of a group of other people I know and this man just happened to be in the photo. I gasped. I literally gasped. I recognized him right away. I don't know how other women see him, but to me, he looks exactly the same as he did all those years ago.

Exactly the same.

No wedding ring either.

How much time do you think you have left to live? 

I ponder that question quite a bit.

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